my first day

So today is a day that I never saw coming. Maybe I played out in my head a couple of times before I would go to sleep on a Sunday evening anticipating a too early Monday morning without coffee but never did I actually imagine that my scariest nightmare could happen. 29, last year of my 20’s, fighting off this adulthood I am so obviously in but naive to really accept it, engaged, home owner, and aspiring teeshirt designer? refurbished furniturer? animal lover? designer? etc and etc on whatever else I feel the need to be, faced to figure out what to do career wise for the rest of my life.
How does one figure these things out? I never really understood how someone can wake up every single day and smile at the idea of going to work. The people that say they do, who are you? where do you work? and are they hiring? Lately going into the office I started wondering, did my God really put me on this earth to work a 8-5 job and not feel like I’m contributing to the success of the awards others are reaping? and then I was faced with the decision, do I accept this or do I change it up completely?

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